My first day as a "BBA"

"BBA?" Bald Bad A$$.....its really what I think of when I take my hat off!!! :) TOday was a busy day! I woke up early, ready to start my day as a BBA! When...

 I got a text from my sister saying she was having an :"ugly cry" at her desk as she read my blog! She said I was beautiful and brave.... she is proud of me...and admires me! I didnt cry about losing my hair....but as i read the text this morning to JD in bed, I cried like a baby. Not because I was sad, but I guess because knowing that makes me happy and proud....and LoVeD...Ive always known my sisters love me, but this is deeper than " Love you, sister love." being admired and looked up to by people and being told you are BrAvE, AmAZiNg, an INSpIrAtiON to others, COURAGEOUS and StRoNG....is a feeling that is hard to explain. This morning as I was crying over my sissy's message, I was trying to explain to JD ( although I needed no explanation) I told him I am confused about why people think I am Brave and inspiring....this isnt something I even onece felt like I had a choice about. I KNOW for a fact, that most people woud handle and DO HANDLE this battle exactly the way I have chosen to....(The Best Way I know how....LOL) He just simply said, " Its not what you are doing that people find admirable, it's the way you are going about it." I mean, I dont know what to think about that other than, if people feel that I am a role model and an inspiration for how I share my ups and downs with so many people....then Im honored ....truly honored! I have always thought my purpose in life was to make a difference in the lives of my students. Ive always been happy and more than content with that. BUT it's interesting to me that I have been put in this place now.....to maybe help others going through similar situations or even difficult times totally seperate from Cancer. That's pretty amazing to me. ( Everyday I am reminded when I read Facebook or talk to other people, that We all have our crosses to bare! We all just chose how we look at different situations and how we use them to better our lives in someway.)  The comments, emails, messages, quotes and cards I have received make me think everyday how I am going to spend my day and I start to think about how I handle things or apprecaite things just a little more than I might have before. My relationships are stronger....for sure and even though all of this is temporary ( I hope for Permenantly temporary) the changes in me are forever.
Love, Love.
Gina <3
A.K.A. Your friend and BBA! :) It's best if you stay on my good side, just sayin!!! LOL