I say WE because I am not in this alone! I want to thank everyone who offers words of support and encouragement as well as those who are my closest friends and family. You are amazing...and I do not feel worthy of all of the attention- but I am so thankful for all of you! :)
I suppose reality hit me about 8:30 this evening...out of the blue. I haven't been able to stop crying for any length of time since then. I dont like for my girls to see me cry and get upset over this...but I dont have any control over my emotions.Some days I couldn't squeeze a tear out if I had to....tonight, I was talking about an upcoming event that I might miss with friends, and it hit me. Im probably going to miss out on alot of social events that I would have otherwise been able to attend. My friends make me happy... and although I dont expect the world to stop while I am going through chemo....I'm sad that I might not be my :"fun self" for a while. ( This is the SAPPY part I warned you about ) So...I just needed a minute to feel sorry for myself. I call these pitty parties! They are few and far between, but they are necessary!
Tomorrow is DAY 1. The next few days should be my easiest....then according to my nurse, will be harder toward the end of the week. But....Im ready to start this so WE can put this behind us!
Cancer has changed me, but it does not DEFINE me. We will ge through it and be stronger for it!!!
...Here We Go!!!
Love, Love.
Gina
Gina,
ReplyDeletethinking about you today! focus on yourself for now...i know those girlfriends of yours and they are going to be sure you have many life moments with them and they will help carry you through! xoxo
Tara Diehl
Gina, I am so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for you over the months to come.
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